1 YEAR LIVING ABROAD UPDATE – What changed?

It has been tiny bit more than one year since I packed my suitcases and made the first step into the biggest adventure of my life. I honestly can’t believe it has already been that long! Time goes so fast and so much happened in that one year. Today I will tell you how does it feel one year later, what changed and what stayed the same but also – would I do it again?


Late August last year I left Croatia and moved to Sweden. It absolutely wasn’t easy but I made it (wasn’t super sure that I will tho). At the beginning it was quite good, I just started my final two years of the uni, met tons of amazing people, I was closer to my boyfriend, it seemed like a perfect life. Of course, soon the “bad” stuff kicked in and at the times, it was a big struggle. But how is it now, one year later?

I still miss my family and friends. Incredibly, actually, probably way more than I did. It is very hard not to think that this is how it will be in life – I will always be far away, always be missing on stuff, even though in our hearts and minds we are closer than ever. I sometimes still get caught in these thoughts and it doesn’t feel good. It is still hard for me to deal with the fact that I don’t see and spend time with my family and friends as I used to when I was in Croatia but I learnt how to deal with it. I simply learnt that we all adjust and get used to new situations and even though it’s very hard, you just find the way to live with it. Your soul and your brain generously does it for you and it makes me so grateful that this process of “putting bad stuff in the furthest box” is something everyone carries in themselves. 

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I am still in Sweden, even though I was in Germany for a couple of months in the spring (read my internship experience I had there). Dealing with Sweden became much easier I have to say. I became a little Swedish, adopted most of their weird food days and queuing rituals and I feel much more like a part of this society. It takes time to get used to the different culture, but it takes more to see that all cultures have their good and bad sides – I just had to change my mindset. And I did! I have to say, even though I love Sweden, I hardly doubt I will live here for a longer period of time. The reason is far away from the cultural thing – it’s (of course) the weather.

Today I know that being a student helped me so much with all the potentials to feel really lost here. I totally understand people who moved for the job or some other reason, it must be very hard. Being surrounded by people every day just makes you feel like you belong. I find it very difficult to find friends when you are not a student. When I was an intern in Munich, I got a perfect picture of it. I moved there to work, I didn’t know a single person in  the city and I had a hard time dealing with loneliness during weekends. So, my friends here save me and I am so happy to have them!

Did I already say I love my school? I totally fell in love with studying here. It took me time to get used to it and now I know that I was never a happier student – and this is what I came for! I never thought I would enjoy studying so much. I have one year left and then it’s time to find a job which I am both a bit afraid of and looking forward to it, it will be a proper entrance to the “adult” world. Still not sure what exactly I want to do tho.

I am again in long-distance relationship (surprise!). And I hate it, if I am being super honest. But relationships are about deals, compromises and love in which decisions are made together. P is currently in Prague doing his exchange and having an amazing cultural shock – a student meal costs 2 Euros! However, the beginning of next year will be very exciting for us, that’s all I will say for now ;)

Still living in the same apartment (watch the tour if you haven’t), I am halfway through my Master Program, I learnt a lot about this culture and lifestyle (and I love it) and I am just having a good life. I would never in a million years change the decision I made last year and I would do it over and over again. Even more, I feel like there is another adventure just around the corner, patiently waiting!


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Prosle godine u osmom mjesecu spakirala sam kofere i iz Hrvatske otisla u Svedsku. Nije bilo nimalo lako, ali uspjelo je (makar nisam bila sigurno hoce li). U pocetku je sve zapravo i bilo super, zapocela sam predzadnju godinu studija, upoznala hrpu fenomenalnih ljudi, bila sam blize decku, cinilo se savrseno. Naravno, prilicno brzo su one lose strane pocele polako pokazivati svoje lice, neke stvari su me dobro prizemljile. Kako je sada, godinu kasnije?

Jos uvijek mi nenormalno fale obitelj i prijatelji u Hrvatskoj. Zapravo mislim da je to jedan od onih elemenata koji nikad ne ide na bolje jer danas mi fale vise nego ikad. Moram priznati da je prilicno tesko ne razmisljati o tome da je ovo moj zivot i da ce takav vjerojatno ostati – uvijek cu biti daleko, uvijek propustati stvari. Nekad je stvarno tesko izbaciti te scenarije iz glave. Jos uvijek mi tesko pada cinjenica da s tim ljudim provodim strasno malo vremena, ali naucila sam se nositi s tim. Jednostavno dodje s vremenom, prilagodila sam nekako tome i iako je tesko, dogodi se samo od sebe. Mozak, kojem sam zahvalna do neba, se brine za to da potisnemo taj osjecaj neke vrste “gubitka” prilicno duboko.

I dalje zivim u Svedskoj, iako sam par mjeseci u proljece bila u Njemackoj (moje iskustvo sa strucne prakse procitajte ovdje). Sa Svedskom se nosim puno puno bolje! Prihvatila sam (ne samo prihvatila, sad mi je cudno kad drugi to ne rade) njihove cudne navika da hrani pridodaju dan samo za to, navikla sam se na njihove rituale stajanja u redu UVIJEK i ZA SVE i zapravo se osjecam kao dio ovog drustva. Treba vremena da se usvoji druga kultura, a jos vise da se ta kultura prihvati bez ogranicenja – morala sam malo promijeniti svjetonazor. I jesam! Moram reci da, iako volim Svedsku, sve vise sumnjam da je ovo moja dugorocna adresa. Daleko do toga da je kultura problem – radi se, naravno, o vremenskim prilikama!

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Danas znam da mi je status studenta pomogao u svim potencijalnim mogucnostima da se osjecam izgubljeno. Potpuno razumijem ljude koji su se preselili zbog posla ili nekog drugog razloga, tesko je. Biti okruzen ljudim svakog danas daje ti osjecaj da pripadas. Mislim da je zbilja tesko naci prijatelje kad nisi student. Kad sam bila na strucnoj praksi u Minhenu, dobila sam pravu sliku o tome kako se osjecati usamljeno. Preselila sam se radi prakse, nisam znala niti jednu osobu u tom gradu i bilo je dosta tesko nositi se tom samocom. Dakle, svi moji novi prijatelji ovjde su me spasili i presretna sam da ih imam, sve zahvaljujuci studiranju!

Jesam vam vec rekla da obozavam svoj faks? Ako gledate moje Instagram videe, mislim da me vec znate :). Totalno sam se zaljubila u studiranje ovdje. Trebalo mi je malo vremena da se naviknem, a danas mogu reci da nikad nisam bila sretniji student – a po to sam i dosla! Nikad nisam mislila da je moguce toliko uzivati u studiranju. Ostala mi je jos jedna godina, a onda i trazenje posla cega se pribojavam, ali i jedva cekam! Ipak ce to biti onaj pravi ulazak u svijet odraslih. Makar jos uvijek nisam sigurno sto tocno zelim raditi.

Ponovno sam u vezi na daljinu (iznenadjenje!). I mrzim sve zivo vezano uz tu situaciju, iskreno. Ali veze su stvar dogovora, kompromisa i ljubavi u kojima su odluke donesene zajedno. P je trenutno u Pragu, na razmjeni, uziva u novom kulturoloskom soku gdje je studentski rucak 20 kuna! Ipak, pocetak iduce godine i jedan i drugi jedva cekamo, to je sve zasad ;)

Jos sam uvijek u istom stanu (pogledajte room tour?), na pola puta sam do diplome, naucila sam puno o ovoj kulturi i stilu zivota (i super mi je) i zapravo uzivam tu. Nikad, ali nikad ne bih promijenila odluku koju sam donijela prosle godine i sve bih ovo ponovno. Jos vise, cini mi se da je jedna nova avantura uskoro na vratima!

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I hope you enjoyed reading this post! If you want to know more about moving, life or anything else abroad or in Sweden, let me know down below in the comments! Also, if you want to read my experiences in the first months of moving here, click here & here! <3


Thank you for reading!

xoxo

A.

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4 thoughts on “1 YEAR LIVING ABROAD UPDATE – What changed?

  1. I can totally relate to this post! Although I didn’t go away too far from home, I know that feeling of leaving something behind (which can be sad) but knowing that it’ll only make your future better. My mom has always told me to do whatever I wanted to do before it was too late. Be young and live vicariously. xx

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    1. Your mom is so supportive, that’s amazing! My parents were too and that makes it so much easier. Then it just feels right :) I hope you are having a great time, all things have good and bad sides and it’s just important to boost the good ones and enjoy the life! Hugs from Sweden! xo ;* <3

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